shanlife

2007-02-05T12:09:00.000+08:00

nvr knew that u're such a person..c'mon,get out of my life..i ain't needing you anymore..just get lost man!FUCK!

2007-01-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

read,pissed,and decided to just forget about it..since she wants to say everything till liddat,then go on ba..since she still kinda insist that she's right,then be it..i'll just insist on my stand then..perhaps as time goes by,we'd both realise our mistakes..but it'd be too late,and i dont think either of us will probably bother anymore..haha.well,glad that she feels MUCH happier cause i'm too(: well,whatever it is..it's the end of everything..FULLSTOP!anyway,lets pray for the better now(: hees!please,no matter what happened..please dont let our friendship drifted apart..just wants us to stay close in a sense..if i were to give up before anything happens,i will?i hope i will la,but i'll try my best i guess..come come,come to me please..hees!!=x

2007-01-22T11:57:00.000+08:00

if u dont bother,why should i even care?thats the end of it,i'm not going to care about anything..perhaps i shall concentrate on some other things(: hees.

2007-01-20T02:32:00.000+08:00

finally finished with all the editing in the blog..woohoo~thou its not really a great job done,but at least i did try my best..lol~well,my brain is kinda dead now..hopefully when my brain functions properly once again,i'll edit my blog to make it look nicer?lol~mm,kinda met up with problems in my life now..quite alot i guess?well,shall just keep numb..nobody will notice in the 1st place..i'm the cheerful huishan as ever!mwahahaha!anyway,not quite in the mood of blogging..so shall just head off to bed now ba..

2006-12-31T01:26:00.000+08:00

woo~it's a long time since i blogged..was always lazy to,but since baby asked me to..i shall just do it just for her sake ba..lol.anyway,nothing to blog also la..cause i forget most of it already..shall blog whatever that is still on my mind then..mm,christmas?it was okay i guess..went out with baby,bble and huiqi..baby tried to give me a surprise by telling me that she can't make it and appear in the end..but it kinda fail,cause i already got that feeling that she'd be coming,and i donoe why..but i'm still happy that she did try giving me one(: love you my dear..anyway went to orchard and got sprayed..had a stain on the shirt that my baby bought for me laa!fuckers..anyway i think the bangalas more poor thing can?kena sprayed into the face and beaten up..disgraces to chinese man!hais..anyway,sorry baby during our anni..was working and wasnt able to celebrate with u=( anyway,happy 11th months(: guess we kinda celebrate it the next day ba..went out with her to tm..caught a movie,and sent her to eunos to take cab..i went to meet miko at ubi,shujing at aljunied,jas and fer at bugis..after slacking,we cabbed down to downtown for christelle's chalet..slacked more,went arcade too..hahahah.settled taiji with this fat guy and rushed home..was kp and all by my mother laaa..whatever..anyway woke up at about 12 plus cause baby coming to my house..she had a VERY hard time to wake me up..but when she came,i still sleep..was super tired laa,donoe why sia..mm,baby left at about 5 plus,sent her down..went to met miko under her blk,waited for her for quite a while i guess..then went to 325 to eat and went back home..watched vcds and tv..hhaha.

2006-12-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog..just work and more work..probably gonna slot all my days in with work(: money!here i come(:

2006-12-18T01:52:00.000+08:00

ENOUGH!

2006-12-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

... this is what i've to say about my day..cause my mind contains nothing,except for song lyrics!=x cause i think that those songs contain a lil bit of my feelings here and there,I GUESS!..some songs will be posted up=x

Seize The Day by Avenged Sevenfold
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry, (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry, (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
Its empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trails in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, or kiss your lips again?
So I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you there
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

Time Machine by Click Five
Oh what a mess
Youve got the best of my heart it broke
And now it's just a joke
Cause you're moving right along
I'm still here and you're gone

Oh what a scene
You know I didn't mean for the winds to change
Won't ever be the same
Cause the kisses that you blew
Could never improve

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

Hey you yeah I'm talking to you
You lost your love in bed
And now it's just dead
Because it didn't mean a thing
But youre waiting for a ring

Hey it's a game and
aint it a shame I was just a show
I thought that this was love
But I can't be fooled again
I'm crying out but I can't give in

I think you need some time
By yourself
Without anybody else
You just need to unwind
In your time machine
You need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
You just need to unwind in your time machine

Oh the things that we could change
(Things that we could change)
Now we'll never be the same

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
By myself, I don't need anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine [2x]

Baby Goodbye by Blazin Squad
Look in your eyes I see a new story
I can't deny my past ain't perfect too
Singin, I'm not here to get false answers
But just like you I got true questions too (yeah)

I never wanna let you go
In ya eyes I can tell that is what we both know
I never wanna see you cry
Or love so perfect let it die
Now baby, baby, baby

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

Hearin your voice just makes me remember
All those times when we were nothin more than friends
I knew you, you knew me, and everything was plain to see
How did I let us get so deep?

I never wanna let you go
In ya eyes I can tell that is what we both know
I never wanna see you cry
Or love perfect baby let it die
Now baby, baby, baby

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

Yo, I looked in ya eyes then I said
Baby I loved all the time that we spent
Then you replied with a tear in ya eye
It should come to an end then we'll both be friends
Both shed tears then we sat for a while
That stone cold feelin puttin on a smile
Know that your leavin lookin to the sky
That one dark evenin killin me inside
Through a new doorway to a next line
Coz you've gone your way and I'll go mine
You know I'll still see you face though we both been apart
I know you got your place deep in my heart
Yo, I just feel so down
Might come around but its for the best now
Both broke down and I'm choked inside
And from the first time when I said baby goodbye (goodbye)

Baby I tried to understand
Why ya had to leave me
And why ya had to be free
Lady I hope you understand
Why I didn't disagree
And why we weren't meant to be

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go min
eI, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye (Baby goodbye)

I wanted you to go your way (your way)
I wanted me to go mine (go mine)
I, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I wanted you to go your way (your way)
I wanted me to go mine (go mine)
I never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, and so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

Slight hope
Dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

Mr Brightside by Killers
Coming out of my cage
And I've been doin' just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go

And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Cus i'm Mr. Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doin' just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go

And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Cus i'm Mr. Brightside

I never
I never
I never
I never

2006-12-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

mm.today was quite a lovely day,thanks to my baby(: hahaha.mm,woke up at about 12 plus after receiving a morning call from my darling..reached her place at about 1 plus,and realised that she was already grilling wings for me!so nice of her right?(: ate and watched Flushed Away..slacked for a while too and headed off for work..was a lil late..today got alot of bungs working,not used to it sia[about 5 bungs there]..lol.anyway,work was tiring laaa..but nice too,cause my baby came to give me a surprise..thou she didn't really manage to surprise me,but i'm still very happy..so baby,don't disappointed already ok?i'm still very happy..anyway,she came twice..2nd time to wait for me to end my work..and so just nice,when she was about to leave,i'm allowed to leave too(: went to Macs to buy my 6 mins apple pie and 4 mins fries..then headed to PS to accompany sharon to find eve..sent baby home after that,and cabbed home with my darling peggy!lol.

2006-12-15T02:17:00.000+08:00

mm.finally decided which blog to blog at..lol.having two blogs at the same time is such a hassle=x anyway,decided to blog here cause i already told her the stuffs that i'm going to blog..mwahhaha!i'm SO going to let everything out laaaa!after keeping it inside for SOOO long(: anyway,received a "morning" call from my baby at about 12 plus..went online awhile and went for my shower when i know baby was already on her way to my place..came out,saw the miss call from her..so i thought she reached ler,took some umbrella and rushed down to meet her..and i realised,she haven reach yet=x lol.anyway,walked to her the coffeeshop and went to meet seagull..bought bubbletea as baby wanted to drink then walk back to meet her and went back to buy some potato chips..headed back to my house after that..watched "Son of the mask" and "John tucker must die" while eating..ohya.pebble came halfway through the shows and brought chicken rice for seagull and me..pebble left at about 4 cause she had got work at 5..shortly after,when the shows ended,seagull left too..leaving baby and me at home,we "played" awhile till about 6 and baby left for her class too..then i was left all alone at home,waiting for baby to go home and accompany me chitchat..=x anyway,thanks baby for helping me to make the blogskin(:

To Him:
omg,i can't believe this..but i actually got dulan seeing your blog la..for GOD sake!please don't say things for the sake of saying..or rather,don't say and do a different thing..IT TURNS ME OFF!i swear i feel like whacking u man,but i can't and i won't..please FREAK HELL stop all those blog la..if u know that u'll blog all those,then don't ACT as if u're really so GENEROUS in the 1st place.."i'm not selfish,i'll let you go.."BULLSHIT la..if u really do so,would u ever say that "u left me cause i'm not good enough for you"..ain't u just trying to win her sympathy or whatever?freak hell la..she's mine already..u dared to take her away from me again,i won't let u off man..just FUCK off!THANKS!

2006-12-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

mm,was the host of the day today..my superiors praised me as im able to get quite a number of pple during a WEEKDAY(: but the bad part is that,they say they'll make me the permanant host..!!omg la..i then dont want sia..being host is SOOO boring and SOOO stress la..and cant miss out this,SOOO irritating..pple will just walk pass u,IGNORING u when u greeted them..hais..well,what to do..?i'm born being ignored!lol.anyway the sales today was about 3.7k..and if i nvr hear wrongly,it's the highest among all the outlets((: proud of myself la..hahahah!=x mm,next work is on friday,hope i wont get to be the host again..so irritating laaa..arghs!more to update,but shan't update now..continue when im home-d..lalala~

2006-12-12T01:12:00.000+08:00

this month is just starting,yet so many things had already happened..chanhuishan is so tired already=( faster,regain all yr energy man..don't worn out so fast..stop thinking about nonsensical things..stop,stop,STOP IT ALREADY!it's just making u more tired only..thou its hard to stop,but have to!ahhh!!someone,find job for me please..i wanna work,hog my life away again..hahah.earn more $$..$_$ nothing much already..byebye~

2006-12-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

mm,when was my last blog?i forgotten.well,i hope i'd be forgetting some other things on my mind..sian~now..my words just became stronger,yet my will continues to weaken..things that have been happening seems to bring me down slowly,day after day..yet,who noes?lol.what can i do either..?i'm tired,i guess..trying to find another job to earn $$ and to kill my time..$_$ so that i can stop all these nonsensical stuffs that always been floating through my mind,again and again,no matter wtf i'm doing..huishan is going down,way down soon..lol.i've been trying very hard to do stuffs that i thought i MUST do,but things just make me feel that whatever i do,will just go down the drain..it's just a matter of time..hais.things on my mind seem to narrow the arterties connecting to my heart,cause my heart seems to have a hard time pumping,real hard..lol.c'mon,something nice happen please..un-block the narrowed arterties,give my heart a rest..it's getting tired,real tired..maybe it's really time to listen and think carefully..=x

Please tell me it's NOT a mistake made..

2006-12-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

sian.today ain't a very good day for me..saw something that i don't really wish to see but yet,still see it..and that didn't make my day turn out too well,i guess..hais..wake up shan,wake up laa.!hais.anyway,went to her house at about 11 plus to accompany her?watched some shows and fell aslp at about 2 plus till about 4 plus..realised that i'm going to be late,so hurried everything..sent her to parkway then headed for work..was late,but luckily,didn't kena any scoldings(: anyway,like what i said,my day didn't turn out well..did wrong stuffs,kena scoldings and all..hais..ended work at about 11,was dead beat laa.went to makan and MACS [a place that carries alot of MEMORIES]..then went home..the 1st thing i got home was more scoldings and naggings from my mother!hais.sian 1/2,can u stop making my life so miserable?i'm already in alot of pain..i'm vexed!hais.whatever la,gonna wake up soon man..or else i'll just end up going bonkers,thinking about all the shit things happening in my life..hais.shit things,happening in my shit life,making my whole life so shitty=.=

2006-12-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

just as i thought we're okay..here i go again,broken down..

2006-12-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

mm,shihui and me finally patched after 4 days?its not long,but its torturing enough..well,maybe i really deserve..mm,wasn't able to live very well that almost 12 days,lol..mm,reasons cause i spent most of my time crying my eyes out,lol.but thanks to some of my friends and brothers,i did manage to stop crying after about 9-10 days..thou,i still wasn't able to stand up from where i fell..anyway,the day was really enjoyable..thou the day was short,but i sure did enjoy it till the fullest..thanks for making my day(: anyway,finally got the courage to say everything out..and hope things will turn out for the better,for anyone of us ba..be it,it may hurt me or not,just promise u'll be happy..and i promise,if u were to choose me,i promise i'll use all my remaining strength to go on with this rs..but don't even hurt me,cause i'd have no more strength to carry on..but if u don't,i'll promise to use all my remaining strength to let go..and there'll be no return,cause i'd have no more strength to carry on..just hope u're happy..loves <333

2006-12-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

special thanks to some of my friends,and nevertheless,my brothers(:

2006-12-02T13:02:00.000+08:00

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot my...

If I wrote you a symphony
Just to say how much you mean to me
(What would you do?)

If I told you, you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular?
(Tell me would you?)

Well baby I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl
(Like you)

This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you
(Saying I do)

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my babyLet me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

(So don't give away...)
My love
(So don't give away...)
My love
(So don't give away...)

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot

My love
(So don't give away...)
My love
(So don't give away...)
My love
(So don't give away...)

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot

My loooooooove
Looooooove
My loooooooove
My loooooooove

Now if I wrote you a love note
And make you smile at every word I wrote
(What would you do?)

Would that make you wanna change your scene?
And wanna be the one on my team
(Tell me would you?)

See what's the point in waiting anymore
Cause girl I've never been more sure
(That baby it's you)

This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you been waiting for
(Just saying I do)

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

(So don't give away...)
My love
(So don't give away...)
My love (So don't give away...)

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot

My love
(So don't give away...)
My love
(So don't give away...)
My love
(So don't give away...)

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot

My loooooooove
Looooooove
My loooooooove
My loooooooove

[T.I:]
Shorty, cool as a fan
On the new once again
But he still has fans from Peru to Japan
Eh Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan (nah)
But if you got a man, try to lose him if you can
Cause the girls real wild throw they hands up high
When they wanna come and kick it wit a stand up guy
You don't really wanna let the chance go by
Cause you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
(Eh Baby) friend so fly I can go fly
Private, cause I handle my B. I.
They call me candle guy (why?) simply cause I am on fire (haha)
I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try (nah)
You don't come, I ain't gonna die
Hold up, what you mean, you can't go why (wha?)
Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie (uh uh)
You say you wanna kick it when I ain't so high (man)
Baby, it's obvious that I ain't your guy
I ain't gon lie, I feel your space
And forget your face, I swear I will
Same park, same bullet anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will

I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

(Love)
My love
(Love)
My love
(Love)

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot

My love
(Love)
My love
(Love)
My love
(Love)

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot

My looooooove
Loooooove
My looooooove
My looooooove

2006-12-02T05:24:00.000+08:00

haha.i'm so happy.we broke up(: she's doing the right thing!i'm such a bad stead,she deserve much more better.why would someone want a stead who only bring misery and tears to her life?neither would i..haha.i'm so happy for her..anyway hope she can find her MrRight soon,be happy..and not like last time,when she's with me,so sad and all..haha.find someone else,someone who can make her smile,laugh..cause her smile is beautiful..hahah.and glad that she can live without me..maybe i should just disappear in her life,or rather should i say i oughto.hahaa. anyway,i did something yestr that makes me feel good,maybe i should do it more often(:
PS.
- dont ever scratch yr hand,no matter how itchy it is..
- rem to apply medicine on them..
- rem to drink more water cause u're having a bad throat now..
- rem to have yr meals on time,and takecare of yr gastric..
- and rem to take good care of yrself..
Byebye.

2006-12-02T02:18:00.000+08:00

it hurts.alot,alot.its very pain,very very pain..

2006-11-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

Look in your eyes I see a new story
I can't deny my past ain't perfect too
Singin, I'm not here to get false answers
But just like you I got true questions too (yeah)

I never wanna let you go
In ya eyes I can tell that is what we both know
I never wanna see you cry
Or love so perfect let it die
Now baby, baby, baby

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

Hearin your voice just makes me remember
All those times when we were nothin more than friends
I knew you, you knew me, and everything was plain to see
How did I let us get so deep?

I never wanna let you go
In ya eyes I can tell that is what we both know
I never wanna see you cry
Or love perfect baby let it die
Now baby, baby, baby

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

Yo, I looked in ya eyes then I said
Baby I loved all the time that we spent
Then you replied with a tear in ya eye
It should come to an end then we'll both be friends
Both shed tears then we sat for a while
That stone cold feelin puttin on a smile
Know that your leavin lookin to the sky
That one dark evenin killin me inside
Through a new doorway to a next line
Coz you've gone your way and I'll go mine
You know I'll still see you face though we both been apart
I know you got your place deep in my heart
Yo, I just feel so down
Might come around but its for the best now
Both broke down and I'm choked inside
And from the first time when I said baby goodbye (goodbye)

Baby I tried to understand
Why ya had to leave me
And why ya had to be free
Lady I hope you understand
Why I didn't disagree
And why we weren't meant to be

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye (Baby goodbye)

I wanted you to go your way (your way)
I wanted me to go mine (go mine)
I, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I wanted you to go your way (your way)
I wanted me to go mine (go mine)
I never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

God,u ain't being fair to me..i promised to change and all,but u're bringing her away..that's not fair!i said prayers to u every night,but u didn't make it come through..i said i'll change,but u didn't give me a chance to..why must u make my life so miserable?why must u bring her away when i decided to focus.?why must u bring more pain into my life,and make me cry like some miserable fools?why don't u just bring me away,put me by yr side?or even,make me her guardian angel so that i could take good care of her..and make all my promises come true..c'mon,take me away,take my soul..it meant nothing,so just take it..stop treating me like a fool!i couldn't take it no more,i'll stop..

2006-11-30T20:29:00.000+08:00

went to shihui's house at about 11plus,cabbed down.then due to some things,we quarrelled,and more things happened.cried,fighted with the wall and yada~went back and cooked baked macaroni to eat.watched "she's the man" did the washing while she went for her shower.headed down to parkway to play pool.played 2 games and we start to feel bored,so we went to play arcade instead.then she went off for her class,while i headed home.mm,joi came a lil after i reached home.
hope everything will be fine.hope what i do won't be regret anymore,hope,we'll be happy.hais.i'm tired and helpless~

2006-11-29T11:29:00.000+08:00

omg~about 9-10 more hours to go and my darling will be back already!!babybaby come back fast.i'm going crazy after not seeing u for a whole 6 days.i need you darling,come back!babybaby,thursday thursday!can't wait to see you,even if i've to watch u sleep.i don't mind!!(: baby,iloveyou.mwahs!

2006-11-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

i'm sad,very very sad..don't ask me why,i'm just sad..disappointed,tired=( ahh!i'm going bonkers..maybe i should give things a goooooood thoughts..lol?well,or maybe i should even think about it..lol?mm,nothing much to blog already..hais..down DOWN down laa!fcuked up life=.= whatever..
mm,10 months already..yep,today exact,10 months..mm,happy anniversary to Shihui,she probably read it only when she returns to Singapore..mm,nvm..anyway yep,happy 10th months..

2006-11-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

mm,had my work today..it was okay,i guess?but i'm dead beat..there's this girl called,Carol,guiding me through..and i got to do almost everything that a noob will do within a day..i was happy when she said i was quite clever!lol.maybe there's just something wrong with my ear,or maybe she's just saying it to boost my confidence..it's my 1st time working,and i guess i'm getting hang of it..still get kinda embarrassed when i've to shout stuffs like,cheers..lol,it sounds silly laaa.anyway,had to memorise tables numbers,that's the hard part..certain numbers go missing ya noe?lol.whatever..anyway,ended work at about 10..was supposed to leave only at 1030 as we've to punch our cards..but our nice manager asked us to leave early cause she'll be helping us to punch..thanks!(: anyway,i'm still down..i donoe why,and now i'm getting pekchey cause my mother keep nagging..want me go work still nag here nag there..shut up la..oh,i shouldn't say i'm getting pekchey..i should say i'm already pekchey,since the time i board the bus 63 at eunos..this fucking bunch of malays are like laughing and talking so loudly as if it's their house..moreover,everyone is like shutting up la,only those mofos laughing and talking away..if only i weren't so tired,i'd definitely scream in their faces laa..fucking bastards,stfu la..anyway,ending here ler..moodless~

2006-11-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

Day Three
well,as usual,nothing much happened..woke up at 1plus,maple-d till 3plus..then went to msn and waited~nvr left the com even for a second till about 730..and baby came online,she talked to me..but i was in the toilet doing some business,sorry ya..anyway,she was online till 9plus..that was the 1st time ever since she went Brunei,was chatting with her all along..lol.after she went offline,watched tv awhile and now..wants to go to sleep(: takcare babe..

2006-11-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

DAY ONE
mm,nothing much happen ba..just stayed home the whole day playing maple lor..hais.sian la..so bored~

PS.
please shut up,keep yr comments to yrself.. -pissed!-

2006-11-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

mm,haven been updating for a long time ler..so sian la.everyday go maple;not to train,but to slack..so sian la,everyone is like winning me or alreayd outshot me ler la..so sian la.anyway,finally got my job ler(: but still need to get my stuffs la..so sian,that stupid woman dont want sponsor me la..just expect to get my money,ask u sponsor abit jiu kpkb..wtf la..thank god i say that my pay is like $3/hr la..if i tell her whats the actual pay,think she'll just grab everything la..wth.i told her that 1 month is only about $450,she expects me to give her $300 and $50 to my sister..i left $100 do what shit sia..somemore dont even want to give me my daily allowanaces..wtf la,what kinda mother sia..everything also money money money..say what i dont save my money..so what i saved,u'll just take it saying that its meant for u and all..then whats the point?moreover,i cant even use the money that i saved on the things i want la,u will just say that im wasting money and all..if only u noe how i feel la,if only u noe how fucking biased u are and all la..always just noe how to complain about me,even if i did something for u..u wont even appreciate it la,just noe how to scold scold scold..and for god sake la,stop saying that i disrespect u la..what is disrespect?i nvr scold u any vulgarities,i nvr hit u back when u hit me..i dont even push u away when u start to hit me and all la..everyone's patience got their limits la..please stop provoking me la,someday i will just vent everything out for u to see la..stop it la,please stop all these..i'll just go crazy someday la..hais.whatever la..enough of it already..anyway tml baby going overseas for 5am,cant fetch her to the airport..sad~she'll be away for 1 week la,sian..hope time passes fast..

2006-11-10T22:27:00.000+08:00

was home-d with my lil Joi the whole day yestr (: slept with her,and was waken up by her at SEVEN!as usual la,everytime sleep with her=have to wake up early..shouldn't let her sleep so early,then she won't wake up so early ler~omg la.i was trying so hard to sleep,but still couldn't..cause she was kicking & pulling my hair just to wake me up..SO,i got no choice but to wake up and play with her lor..then father asked me to bring my maid down to see doc as she's not feeling well?mm,the doc suspected that she've had some stones thing growing on yr gall?i donoe la,gonna change my maid AGAIN..this maid is like less than 2 weeks or something?aiya whatever la..fcuked up mother came in to kp for nothing la..people pierce their business right?say until u so noble,say what..i outside do alot of things just that u don't say anything..please la,u this kinda person..if u know what i'm doing outside and all,u'll keep quiet?if u do,i chop my head down for u to play man~just know how to bullsh!t..please don't act as if u understand me very well when u don't..thankyou.anyway,maths was HORRIBLE?couldn't finish up in time,everything was like..rushed?doubt i'll do well for maths..or i should say,doubt i'll do well for this O's?prepare for ITE life~LOL..anyway,went to watch STEPUP after maths..that show=double thumbs up!i swear that show is like freaking niceeeee (: lol.went to buy my "balls" & had some laughter there..SOMEONE did something there,which is freaking funny..especially the part when that SOMEONE screamed,high-pitched~lol. anyway,SHUHUI~!!sorry for not letting u eat the "balls" that i bought..u shall go home & enjoy yours la,i bet its so much better. lol (: anyway,happy advance birthday to HuiXuan..i'm sorry if i can't make it tml k?enjoy & takcare (: <3333

2006-11-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

well,3 more papers to go and i'll be freee~shall go look for a job to occupy me in the day,and spend my night clubbing my life away..lol.well,the thing that is confusing me all along is partly solved?but still,i've things up in my mind that is troubling me..hais.this time,i seriously have no idea to solve it..if only i could say,please show a lil bit more concern to me pleaseee.. AND AND,less heckcare..if only i could say out how i feel and all..nvm about that,studies come first for now?i hope i will be able to concentrate ler..-PRAYS-

i've been wondering,am i doing the right thing?and now i realised,not only that i'm right..i should have done this ages ago..i used to hold a naive thought that there'll be a change,but now i realised,there won't be any..

8thNovember2006;end of everything..

2006-11-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

it's been quite some time since i last updated or something?mm,having my major exams now..DAMN stressed up,but still couldn't concentrate on it..only when someone starts to motivate me laa.hais..chinese and 1/2 of 3 other subjects are already down..i think i'm so gonna flunk them all..hais.been telling myself to CONCENTRATE,but my thoughts will just start..fluttering their wings, and fly to somewhere else..can't i just CONCENTRATE?!i don't want to get into ITE for GOD sake..i'm willing to go to any course in TP la..ok!maybe not ANY courses,but most of it alright?hais.ok,i don't have much choice either..shouldn't talk so much la..i MUST score AT LEAST a B3 for my english,chinese,maths,com.huma & fnn.so,may GOD bless me..anyway,i'm kinda in some love troubles now..hais.hope everything will come to an end soon..

2006-11-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

i said what i've to say.. i'm sorry if i did hurt u in any ways.. i'm trying to hold back my feelings for reasons more than u can see..

u seems to be constantly on my mind, and thoughts will start floating~

2006-11-02T08:09:00.000+08:00

here to blog before i headed off for school.. anyway, i blogged cause leongSEAGULL, and Pebble asked me tooo (: tata~

2006-10-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for quite some time ler.. got lil things to update about, but i guess i dont want it to be known ba; so i kept everything to myself. as it accumulates over time, it kinda start to blurt out slowly these few days; especially after i get my period.. im sorry to all that i given attitudes to, especially you.. anyway, i said everything out just now.. i felt SO much better already, thx lots Pebble.. thx for being there for me always (: thx for lending yr listenin ears, really thx (: thats my brother.. =D nothing else to blog ler..

2006-10-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

i noe, it's been a real LONG time since i last blogged la.. but can't blame me also, i'm a LAZY person ma.. lol. mm. made Pebble & her brother wait for me for a LONG time, causing all of us to be late AGAIN! i'm sorry~ :S received a lovely note & ice-cream stick from Huiru, my beloved brother once i reached class.. thanks (: and another from Fangqi, together with a small packet of sweets.. how nice of her! (: soon, my day was spolit.. chemistry & english was as normal, even had TEST during english. bloodly Fahmmy~ anyway, talked alot to MrsKong today.. she's a real nice teacher la.. got a lil bookmark from her, i got the cutest 1 & everyone was jealous~ mwahahah! last lesson of the day, F&N.. got a picture of my this yr execution with YvonneTan's message behind. i scolded her bias, cause she didnt sign mine~ got this lil Taz cup from her too, cause i've been her rep for 2 yrs.. the wrapper was tore, and i scolded her bias again.. i regretted that, sorry~ anyway, school ended at 1240pm. met our sick Meiqi at the school gate.. takcare girl~ anyway, went to Plaza Singapura to have our lunch at Pizza Hut.. had a baked pasta, 1/3 of a regular pizza, 2 wings, and others lil things, all shared with Pebble~ and i donoe why, i got tummy ache after finishing my food.. went off to buy roses for YvonneTan & MrsKong.. went back to school, slacked awhile in 4F classroom, looking at them playing some game that i don't seem to get it.. lol. anyway, went back to class, rest awhile & headed off to the hall.. its our GRADUATION TIME.. naggy speeches & had a presentation of our lives in school.. then it was the time for us to get our certificate ler! omg la! i was the first for our class, i was like so blur la.. then after all got their cert, we had to take a class photo with MrsKong.. in the beginning, i thought that she was going the other side, but she came to my side.. & guess what, she booo at me from behind! wasn't really very shocked, but i was laughing so hard that my whole face went red~ AH! so paiseh la.. lol. went back to our seats and more rubbish for a lil while more.. then there's this performance by YvonneTan & MsYap.. that song was dedicated to us, both 4H & 4I by YvonneTan.. THANK LOTS~ everything ended at about 730pm, went down to the canteen to find our teachers.. hugged YvonneTan & tears just rolled down la. wth la. before that, hug with other pple also nothing.. only hug her then i cry.. stupid lor.. my tearing like can pass around liddat.. most of the pple who hugged me, started crying too.. lol. sorry guys.. AND AND! most pple was like shocked? when they see me cry la.. HEY HEY~ i do have emotion ok? perhaps a lil too over-emotional only.. but i can't help it either also ma. :S lol. then cried & cried & cried for about 1/2 - 1 hrs? lol. took pictures with friends & teachers.. love them lots la.. wanted to say things to them de, but didn't dare to.. cause i can feel that my tears gonna fall out soon once i say out.. lol. AHH! I WILL MISS U GUYS LOTS! lol. anyway, went to Fangning's house that area to eat fish beehoon and cabbed home..

2006-10-01T11:09:00.000+08:00

long time nvr update ler.. so many pple asking me to update.. nothing to update, how to update? lol. anyway blk catching was fun on friday with my brothers.. we should hang out more like THIS! lol. watched Rob-B-Hood yesterday.. the show is SO nice la.. the baby SO cute, but my Joi cuter ofcos.. anyway, went to meet Pebble & friends after the show.. left after about 4-5 games with my baby (: headed to parkway, bought my bread cause i'm hungry & slack at a i-don't-know-where place.. left at about 930pm before my mother scold to *%&%$# then i'll be like sian half la.. anyway, was suppose to blog yesterday.. but i fell aslp when mapling.. so since, now i got nothing to do, shall just randomly update lor.. it's not very detailed, but who cares (: lol.

2006-09-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

wanted to update yestr but didn't cause i'm lazy, i guess.. lol. anyway, yestr was Pebble's & Shawn's bdae.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO & Sean.! anyway, went out to celebrate their bdae with ShuHui, MeiQi, FangNing & Stefanie.. went to watch John Tucker Must Die at Plaza Singapura.. it's a nice show la, highly recommended.. lol. mm, almost wanted to tio a guy la.. we went down the escalator, then this 2 guy went down at the escalator next to us.. then the guy wearing white shouted "chiobu~" & very coincidentally, FangNing & Stefanie turned. (saw they saw the shop that they were talking about, morphsis i think) then 1 of the guys shouted "bhb~", & Pebble scolded back.. i asked Pebble what happened.. after telling ShuHui & me, we decided to say back.. so ShuHui & me went down the escalator, ShuHui shouted "shuaige~", they turned & i shouted "bhb~".. they went off laughing, making Pebble & me very bushuang.. so we decided to follow them la.. they went into 77th street, looking at lighters.. the green shirt guy was blocking the whole path la.. thout there's another path, i purposely wanted to walk by that path.. so i went towards them & shouted "EXCUSE ME!". the green shirt turned, stared at me & asked me to walk by the other path.. i said " why should i? i'm yr dog ar", something to that extent.. then he turned back to look at the lighters.. so i just banged him & pass through.. he turned again & shouted, "what u want?" then i shouted back "what la, i said excuse me then u ownself dont want let me pass de leh.." then he said "u cannot walkby the other path ar?" then i replied " why should i?" then the shop assistant said "wei, don't quarrel here.. go out then quarrel.." then i was like.. huh? shouldn't u be stopping us instead of asking us to quarrel outside? lol! then the 2 guys walked out lor, Pebble & me went behind the shop to laugh then we walked out also.. we were searching for them, but they walked damn fast la.. i guess Pebble was disappointed cause she wanted to scold too.. LOL! nvm la Pebble, next time we go find more of these xl pple scold lor.. LOL. anyway, we went back to find the rest, told them the story & they start to get so agitated la! so funny la.. lol. anyway, we headed to Grandlink to play pool AGAIN! lol. awhile later, MeiQi left for her dad's bdae dinner, Stefanie for her bf & FangNing for home, i think.. playing for about 2hrs? then we left for Wang Bu Liao steamboat! lol. it damn exp la.. it cause about 12+ & the food there is like SO pathetic la, should have gone to Marina South to eat instead.. after our dinner, we went to MeiQi's house to slack.. the funny part is that, when Pebble is walking around the alley area.. there's 1 whore that came up to her & say "didi come, jiejie teach u how to have sex.." LOL la.. it freaked out Pebble la, so funny.. haha. anyway, we left at about 1030pm.. went to sleep at about 1am, i think..

2006-09-23T12:16:00.000+08:00

don't say that it's yr fault when u don't even think that it's yr fault.. it WON'T help at all.. cause the same thing will just REPEAT & REPEAT!

2006-09-23T00:49:00.000+08:00

school as usual & all la.. our class made a relief teacher cried, & we were all scolded by our form teacher quite badly, i guess? lol. heckcare la~ anyway, school ended.. Pebble accompany me to my mother's shop to fetch my lil Joi.. she suggested to go have lunch 1st, so we went tgt with Joi, of cos.. saw XiangRong & ImmPeng at the coffeeshop.. ate there, chatted & left.. Pebble went to my house to help me takcare of Joi awhile so that i could have my beauty shower.. lol. Pebble left at about 4plus, i guess? lol. my lil Joi is so adorable today.. she fed me with the apple she was eating lol. she's SO cute~ my lil precious.. lol. mother is pressing me to go to bed ler la.. sian. wondering how would life be W/O her..! lol.

2 regrets in my life.. letting go of someone that i shouldn't & holding on to someone that i shouldn't..

i'm so tired la.. whatever i do, u also not happy.. enough is enough la.. i can't hold on any longer..

2006-09-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

haven't been updating for a long time, i guess.. nothing much to blog about either la.. today is a REAL bad day la.. demoralised by all the stupid marks that i had.. hoping that baby could accompany me for the whole day, but she got class, as usual la.. went to have my hair cut & it turns out bad, i guess? hais. nvm, enough of it already.. afterall the haircut, went home & was called to feed Joi the moment i STEP into the damn house.. sisters ask me whether i want to eat anot, & my fucking father says.. "aiya, she no need to eat 1 la", & scooped everthing to my sister.. wth. then nvm, i feed Joi with the amount i always feed her with.. & my fucking father came up with a damn comment which then make me kena scolded.. it's for nothing la, it's not even my fault la.. wth.. then yada yada la~ no mood to blog.. but donoe why, i just ended up here..

hais. i really can't control la, i donoe why either.. i know it's not yr fault that u have to go for the stupid lesson, but i just can't help it to get upset la.. sometime i really don't feel like meeting u for a LONG LONG time so that maybe.. i can learn to cherish our time ba.. aiya.. whatever la. hackcare also.. got to go sleep ler la..

2006-09-17T01:12:00.000+08:00

mm. didn't update yesterday, couldn't update either.. cause i forgotten what happened yesterday ler.. lol. my memory is like, getting worst & worst.. hais~ mm. anyway, woke up at 7! today, thanks to Joi Lim Kai Xin.. thank God, this time she went back to sleep at about 9 for an hour or so.. anyway, woke up at about 10? when baby called.. went to heat up water for Joi & prepare stuffs for her.. baby came, i went to help Joi shower.. then baby go feed her while i went to have my shower.. made my hair for a long time & all then left.. went to my sister's shop, left Joi there & headed off to Marina Square to have our late breakfast/early lunch.. lol. don't know why, today i ate EXTREMELY lil & baby ate quite alot, i guess? lol. we switched role today.. haha. mm. after that, we went to play pool.. got this 3 bastards keep looking over to our side.. & i'm VERY sure that they're looking at us cause we're like at the last corner, the & that there're no other pple there except us.. then got this bastard, SUPER gay la.. that gay bastard waved to my baby when i was away.. bastard! my baby wasn't even bothered about u la~ whatever la.. anyway, we went off to concourse to meet leongSEAGULL & friends.. saw another bastard there la, TOTALLY turn me off.. sian, sian, SIAN! anyway, went off at about 430pm cause i got dinner at night.. sent baby home.. slacked at home till about 7? before heading off for the dinner.. & i SWEAR the dinner SUCK to the core la.. the food sucks, the place sucks, the MC sucks, the everything also sucks la! hackcare~ went home at about 11plus.. & yada yada yada~ taadaaa~ here i am (:

rem the promise that i made to u.. let's make this promise come through.. <333

2006-09-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

mm. haven been updating the blog for more than a week, i guess.. well, was busy "studying" & mapling.. it sounds weird huh? lol. sian la, im stuck at lvl 52 for my lit wizard and lvl 20+ for my assassin.. FASTER LVL PLEASE! lol. anyway, had some of the prelims paper this week; english, chinese, maths paper 2, chemistry & combined humanities.. english was still ok, i guess.. just that i'm a lil blur when i had the paper in my hand.. chinese, ah! hopeless.. i kinda like, forgotten the format i guess? lol. heckkkk~ maths paper 2, i really tried VERY hard for this.. i'm serious about it la, its my first time being so serious about maths lor.. hope i could get, a pass? lol. mm. chemistry~ lol. one word for it; sucky~ firstly, i did not have my notes to study for it.. & secondly, it just simply turns me off when i first looked at the paper.. first word that came into my mind; boring~ lol. combined humanities; social studies.. did not bring notes home too.. & hence, it turned out to be another hopeless paper.. hais~ i left the section B, part 2 blanked.. & thou, i filled up section B, part 1 with words.. it was ALL rubbish, i don't even understand what the hell i was writing about la.. lastly, history.. the subject that i had for today.. it was okayyy~ partly cause the only chapter i studied came out, guess i was kinda lucky.. however, i still did not have enough time to complete the paper la.. i left my Support Question ALL blank, my 8 marks.. it's all gone~ hais. nvm, i MUST study hard for my O's.. ok! at least i hope i could alright?! whatever la.. anyway, lil Joi came (: she's so cute la! she actually WALKED to me w/o me calling her to.. & she practically ignored my sister when my sister asked her to walk to her.. lol. my lil baby Joi~ haha. anyway went out to have my mom's bdae dinner at about 8+ going 9? reached home at about 10+ going 11. & here i am (:

I Love You, Baby~

2006-09-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

long time didn't blog ler, i guess.. was kinda busy in maple, not lvl-ing but fooling around.. lol. after so long, i finally lvl-ed today.. how pathetic~ anyway, wasn't feeling well to blog today.. but under the request of my baby, i did.. well. went to fetch her today, then go to her house so that she can shower.. then went down to HotShots to play pool & a lil arcade.. went back to her house as baby need to cook rice then went to beach to slack & all.. mm. took funny pictures but couldn't post today cause i haven't got it from her yet.. i'll post it asap (: yep, went home at about 7 ba..

Wo Sheng Bing Ler! :(

2006-09-01T19:50:00.000+08:00

My Patience Has Its Limit!

2006-08-31T22:32:00.000+08:00

mm. had our graduation photos taken today.. it's kinda rubbish la, the guys in our class don't want to cooperate.. spoilt the whole thing only, cause most girls are being turned off by them.. so, i had this very strong instincts that the photo will come out RUBBISH! hais. whatever la. anyway, went back class after 2 periods to have our maths.. got back my maths paper 2 today.. passed, but not with flying colors.. so disappointing.. overall for maths, i think i got about 49+.. still fail la, sian half.. had a combined recess after maths, so many pple la.. stupid sia, couldn't have rice with my eggs! lol. went to the hall for concert then.. kinda enjoyed la.. we had a fun time disturbing the stupid india MC on stage.. lol. ohya, the performance was like almost great la.. the dance was awesome la.. woohoo~ lol. anyway, concert ended at about 1130am? walked with Pebble & Stefanie to kallang mrt station to go to eunos.. then walked to the bus stop & took 55 to baby's school.. it's was still kinda early as she's like releasing at about 115pm? so, i went through the long way, almost taking a tour around that area.. but still, i reached there at about 1250pm or 1pm.. so, just stood there & waited for her like some idiot lor.. all the ex Ngee Ann Primary students were like staring at me like i monster like that, so i just diao them to shoo them off lor.. anyway after about 45 mins or so, baby finally came out.. i was kinda pekchey la.. so didn't really talk to her till i finally cooled down.. anyway, went to her house & shower all before leaving her house to meet Pebble & Stefanie.. was actually planning to watch a show with them, but sadly.. Stefanie has no more cash already, so we just went to Yoshinoya to eat & slack till about 520pm? after that, baby & i went to.. Suntec City to play arcade? but before that we bought cup corn & tutu kuek.. lol. used 5bucks at the arcade & went back to parkway, planning to play pool.. however, cause it was like getting late.. so we didn't play as i need to go home already.. so yep, went home..

2006-08-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

had my english paper for prelims today.. sian, sure fail de la.. don't even have mood to do, all i think about was SLEEP la.. lol. nvm, at least i did try my best to stay awake & finish the paper.. (: mm, everything ends at about 1225.. went off to fetch baby at her school there, have to make her wait cause i was late.. the bus took quite some time to come & i dropped at the wrong stop too.. so malu la, like some idiot like that.. drop, took the bus behind & drop again.. lol. nvm, forget it.. anyway, met baby at the stop outside 7-eleven for i-don't-know-what reason.. mm, reach her house that bus stop & rain started coming in.. it was so heavy that we could not even cross the road to get to her house.. so baby called her friend to have the umbrella delivered down for us.. thanks Alvin, if i'm not wrong.. anyway, finally got to her house with me & her almost all drenched la.. i guess the umbrella is too small for the both of us.. haha. nvm la, least my baby did not really get drenched.. mm, baby cooked food for me to eat while i searched for more food to eat.. finish up almost all the food & went to her room to slack.. decided to leave her house for mine at about 510pm? baby went to cook rice as usual & found a lot of cockroaches visiting that cupboard with the rice pot.. we started killing all the cockroaches by spraying LOTS of insectide in the cupboard.. baby decided not to cook rice as she was too afraid to have her hand inside the pot as cockroaches can be seen inside.. lol. so we headed to my house lor.. my sister & her bf at home, & we were like.. sian half la.. so we went to my parents' room & slacked instead.. we watch CARTOONS lol. nice nice~ (: went back to my room after my sister & her bf are gone, finally comfy~ lol. ate spring chicken as usual, & sent baby downstairs to take cab..

oh gosh.. i can't stand my mother la.. she said things that i don't like to listen la.. damn it. it's not the 1st time already la.. with WHOEVER girl u also will say that i was fooling around with, even Pebble la! wth la, use yr damn brain la..

i'll keep the promise that i made to u today.. not only today's promise, but all the promises that i had made & will make to u.. ilu.

2006-08-29T21:23:00.000+08:00

had comb.science practical today.. sianzation.. DARN, sure going to fail de lor.. started with physics paper & i'm already damn blur already la.. the stupid bob kept hitting the table, making me re-do & re-do till i so pekchey la.. finally got all the timings, but couldn't get the stupid graph right.. AH! nvm. moved onto the chemistry part & as usual, i don't really know how to answer so just scribbled some rubbish down.. the test ended at about 925am & we went to the PAC for the lockup.. stupid la! it's damn unfair la.. only the 1st shift have to be lock up, some more it's for about 2 hours la! aiya, whatever la.. anyway, after the stupid lockup.. Pebble, Shuihui & me went to Bugis to have Pasta Mania, then to Grand Cathay to watch LoveWrecked.. it's a nice show la.. i think any shows that are by Amanda Bynes is nice la, must watch more shows by her in the future! (: ohya, went to Plaza Singapura for walks. meanwhile, waited for "J" to come to meet us.. then continued walking in search of bag for me, as a present from Pebble.. couldn't find any in Plaza Singapura, so went to Bugis again lor.. partly is also cause that we're bored of Plaza Singapura la.. mm, walked in Bugis Street for a while then went to Parco.. nothing for me again, so decided to head home.. guess everyone is like, tired? lol. YEAS! lil Joi is coming later.. my lil baby~ <3

will we be able to last? will we be able to carry like the way in the past?

2006-08-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

mm. started the day off with 4 free periods cause MsYvonneTan did not come.. (: or elsee, it will be theory theory & more theory la.. woo~ freaking boring it will be la, thank God.. lol. mm. did maths for the first 2 periods cause the relief teacher is a maths teacher, MrsKeh.. went off chatting away with bro; Pebble, Shuhui & Huixian till recess.. bought chocolates & sweets back to class & eat.. maths, followed by comb. humanities then poa.. mm. now, poa is just about slacking & sleeping or doing some other work other than poa to me la.. wanted to sleep in the beginning, but~ did not manage to, cause my class is so heavenly "quiet" & maybe.. cause i'm not that tired afterall, i guess.. ok, school ended.. went to meet Apple then took a cab to parkway, with her sponsoring.. lol. went to do the coloring thing(i don't know what's it called).. it took us for about an hour la, i was like what the hell when we're done.. ok, then i was hungry i guess.. so we went to eat MACS, which i think we haven't been eating for quite some time? yep. after that, went to her house to cook rice & headed to my house cause there's like nothing to do already? lol. slacked & all.. she left at about 10? with me sending her down, as usual..

we've been quarrelling quite often now, haven't we? maybe we should just think about what we should be do about it ba.. this thing can't just go on, it won't lead us to any better..

i think we both changed.. definitely, me for the worse & perhaps, u for the better..

2006-08-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

happy 7th month baby.. it's once again our anniversary.. so much happened during this short 1 month but we got through it, i guess? mm. just hope that we'll learn from our mistakes, changed for a better.. also to learn how to tolerate, to forgive & to cherish.. let's hold hands & work hard to make our love last.. I LOVE YOU!

the lil pig that i got for her..

2006-08-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

mm. woke up today at about 130pm cause Miko called.. went maple cause baby told me some idiots bully her by ks-ing her.. but by the time i went there, they were already gone la.. stupid. should have woke up early, then i can help baby revenge.. anyway, maple is like freaking laggy la.. play less than 5 mins, i'll just lag out or stuck down there like some idiot.. gave up when i was like, killed due to the lagginess.. then went to cook my 1st packet of instant noodle of the day.. after eating, slack awhile before baby came.. continued with the slacking before Jacelyn & Miko came to use the com to check some soccer things.. watch the Devil Beside You for awhile & went to cook my 2nd packet of instant noodle with baby.. also cooked MeeGoreng for Miko.. after eating, ran down to buy ice-cream for baby & me cause i suddenly got the urge to eat.. lol. mm. went back slacking for awhile, then baby & me went to cook my 3rd packet of instant noodle.. i'm such a pig, but i'm hungry la! mm, at about 6plus then Miko & Jacelyn left after Shujing called i guess.. so left only baby & me to continue with the slacking till about 7? then we started to watch tv and all lor.. send baby down to blue table to meet Adeline & kinda like walked home with Miko cause we're heading at the same direction? so yep..

i don't like it when u say that..

2006-08-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

mm. woke up at 6am & couldn't go back to sleep already.. so sian. so went to parent's room & watch cartoons! watched MrBean at about 8am & suddenly, got an urge to have picnic! lol. i know i'm lame la.. mm. slack slack and all lor.. talked to Pebble on the msn, asked her about the outing with Fangning they all.. she told me it's cancelled, so nvm lor.. then she told me maybe she going out with "J", so i kinda like suggested to meet up & all? but in the end "J" couldn't go out, so nvr meet lor.. ended up going out with Apple the whole day lor.. mm. went to bugis to buy Apple's bag & something else.. after that we went to orchard to change the shirt Apple bought then watch "Click" AGAIN~ it's a damn freaking nice show la, watch a thousand times also don't mind la.. haha! mm. after the show, we went to Takashimaya to walk awhile lor.. & headed home after that.. quite tiring ba, i guess..

i don't like yr stubborness.. hais~ it's not the first time already.. can u just change?

2006-08-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

ah! my com is like, so laggy la.. load what also so slow, stupid com.. what's the problem? &#$%@ so irritating la! anyway, school like.. sucky? the bad part came after fnn, when MrsKong flared.. i was like thinking.. sian half la, again?! lol. just because we came back late for lessons, she started to %!%!$@.. she even blamed MsYvonneTan by saying she's always late & whatever.. thank God that we only have 1 of her lesson thou supposingly, we have 2.. cause poa is taken away due to the maths test, so 1 maths lesson is taken by poa.. but even so, we still study for maths during poa & i guess MsTan had nothing to do about it.. so she just let us be ba.. lol. anyway, had my stupid maths test after school.. going to fail it la, i know nuts about all the questions.. ah! sian. enough of that already, it's turning me off.. anyway, baby came to fetch me.. she took my stuff to change & bought me a shirt.. thou the shirt is like, kinda big for me.. but still thank alot baby.. loves(: we went shell, the petrol station & bought chocolates & a ice lemon tea.. after that, headed to the bus stop to go to my house.. meanwhile, saw some brothers & co. ohya, saw some BASTARDS! lol. the sight of those bastards just irk me la! haha. reached home, started to slack & i got my nose blocked again! sian. wanted to sleep, but got blocknose so cannot sleep.. very xinku la! after awhile, baby got blocknose too.. sorry~ mm. continue slacking till about 7 & we started watching tv.. baby left at about 10? sorry baby, didn't send u down.. i'm WAY too lazy, as u know i'm a pig.. haha!

love equals to tolerance & forgiveness.. let's learn to forgive each other's wrong doings in the past, start anew & learn to forgive when one done wrong..

i'm trying to let go of the past & hold on to the present.. we both changed & i hope it's for the better.. i love u~

2006-08-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

lessons as usual for today.. took a girl's no for someone today during recess.. had maths remedial after school.. till about 330pm? after that, accompanied Pebble to parkway to take "pencils" from Yvonne.. meanwhile, went to buy something for Apple & my lil Joi & headed home.. reached home, "set up" the new toy i bought for lil Joi & shortly, Pebble & Jenny came.. both taught me Maths, thanks guys.. pray hard that i'll be able to pass my Maths paper 2 tml ba.. eh. after that, went down to send Jen to the bus stop & here i am again..

stop asking me what i bought for u la, it's a stupid "surprise".. u'll get to know about it in due course alrights?
i want us to be back like last time, thou feeling is like kinda impossible..

2006-08-23T22:56:00.000+08:00

another day~ today is like, super duper boring la.. 4 periods of english la.. wanna sleep, but didn't.. i'm guai la! lol. didn't have assembly today, so remained in class to study for my fnn instead.. but it didn't seem to help in any way la. i'm just too no mood to study la, the book is like right in front of me but nothing gets into my head.. it's like so irritating la.. i wanted to score well for my fnn de, but i guess i can't.. nvm. school ended, headed to the canteen to continue with my "study".. then headed to room 222 at about 3pm for the test.. took the paper, my mind is like~ blank la. hais. wrote some rubbish & handed up cause time's up.. then headed home, showered & slack for awhile then went to have my hair cut.. it didn't turn out nice as usual, but this time i didn't really care.. no idea why either lol. mm. went home & showered again, trying hard to get those cut-d hair out of my head la.. but still, alot remains as usual again.. just nice when i came out, Apple came.. she bought cup corn & oreo blended ice for me.. thanks gal. slacked awhile more again & went down to have "dinner".. i had fish & chips while she had fishball minced meat noodle w/o minced meat.. what a nice stall right? lol. went home & Joi came! my lil bubbly lovable baby.. she's so cute la.. loves <3>i don't wish to quarrel anymore.. hope we'd be able to last this time round w/o any problems cropping up.. please~

2006-08-23T16:48:00.000+08:00

are u telling me the truth?

if only we know how to learn from our mistakes..

2006-08-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder.. is it me, who is the one who's trying to be unreasonable? or u, being hard to understand.. guess like what u said, things wouldn't be the same anymore?

2006-08-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

another boring day in school until.. the last period; chinese.. it's a new teacher, or rather for me.. cause she has never taught me before, Ms Goh.. i got some laughs in the beginning la, due to the way she talks & all.. lol. after that, i concentrated.. i seems to have more interest in her teachings rather than Mr Seet's.. maybe cause i've already gone through a year with him ba.. whatever it's, i just hope this time re-test, i would be able to score at least an A2 ba.. must work hard already ar! my target, i must achieve it la.. ok, enough of studies.. mm, after school went to bugis with Pebble then to plaza singapura.. ate KFC there and headed off to bishan.. waited for about an hr plus for Lynette & her stead.. & went home cause bble have to reach home before 8.. home-d, showered & tried very hard to write some notes on fnn.. tml is fnn test la, haven't even study yet.. hais. mm, better go continue with my note-writing.. don't wish to fail my fnn again la.. lol..

read the msg i sent to Jen last time.. lol. never regretted abit about what i wrote there & i'm glad that i didn't break the lil "promise".. lol. actually, it's kinda silly to hold a knife at the wrist la.. but nvr regretted any tears shed, and love given.. she's a girl worthwhile la.. lol.

P.S
so what i love her alot, it's all in the past already.. u should know that i only love u now la. wth. sometimes i really don't know what u want or what u're thinking of la.. u sound like u're doubting my love for u, again.. & that i still love her.. nvm.

2006-08-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

first day of the week in school & i'm already so damn bored la.. four periods of fnn early in the morning la.. but the whole class is like so energetic la, donoe why.. LOL! everyone shouting here & there.. then it's recess next & it's all about copying of maths.. lol. fell aslp at about the last 10-20 mins, then it's comb. humanities.. so sian la, can't slp at all la.. last 2 periods, POA & i thought i could finally have a nice sleep.. in the end, i still couldn't cause my class was far too "quiet" la. & so, i ended up dreaming away about i-don't-know-what la.. lol. after that went for the stupid chemistry class.. teacher says awhile only, in the end we also need to spend 45 mins there.. waste of my time only.. that teacher makes me lose interest in chemistry la.. ok, maybe i shouldn't push all the blame on her.. but partly is cause of her la, i'm sure.. nvm about that already la, heckcare.. mm, anyway after that went to meet Apple at her house.. slacked awhile before going to popular to look for our notebook and all.. finally found 1 that's like, kinda acceptable? but only left with the last piece, so i suggested to go to MPH to look for the notebook instead.. couldn't find any nice one, so we just bought a plain black 1. anyway it's for study purpose la, why care so much about the appearance sia?! lol. mm. then went to eat at KFC after that and went back to popular again, to buy the pens.. & went back home. kinda tired, so guess i'll be sleeping early ba.. having sore eyes too, so itchy & irritating.. lol.

we just have different mindsets about things la.. i think that's the cause of all our quarrels ba. & i think it would be hard to change, for both u & me..

2006-08-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

a day out with my dearest wifey.. LOL! first time out without styling my hair, instead.. i wore a cap.. (: the one that my bee bought for me on my bdae.. decided to go Bugis to watch movie; The Ghost Game.. went to check the show time; 7.20pm.. bought the tickets and went to makan makan~ walked a BIG round before settling down.. & the credit goes to HER ofcos! LOL. mm, she ate chicken rice.. & me, fish beehoon.. after eating, went off for the show.. mm. it was not scary thou it's supposed to.. but still, i got shocked TWICE due to the sound effects.. & she was laughing away! @!$#!$#% nvm, i shall be nice & forgive her.. LOL. anyway, donoe why.. i FEEL that the show was alright. LOL! maybe today, i'm in a good mood ba.. mm. guess in another 5 days then i can see her ba.. cause she'll be busy studying & so am i.. may she do well for both her prelims & N's..

P.S.
Baby, must study hard & do well ar!

HAHAHA! someone is JEALOUS of my layout! i knew u will be jealous la. LOL!

2006-08-20T02:11:00.000+08:00

the very first post for my new blog! (: finally, i'm done with all the editing & all.. thou, not very happy with it.. but, it's still my hardwork.. cause last time is all ask pple help me do de.. this time round, i did it all by myself! (: got one stupid woman says will check on me.. in the end sleep till, like a pig liddat! & that person is my wife, ofcos.. LOL! piggie~ mm, i think i better go to bed now la.. or else, later my mother come in & @#$#@%! me.. then tml it'll be my wife's turn.. LOL.

baby, we finally got over with the "crisis" let's hope that our upcoming months will be better ba.. thou, feelings still not back yet.. but i seriously will try to gain everything back.. i love you~